I find myself completely befuddled by this idea. I know, in some way, that it’s true, yet I’m unsure how to fully control my reaction, or, rather, how I feel. So instead I try to control the situation.
It doesn’t always work. Sometimes it does, yet I convince myself that the problem is merely that I have not attained full control.
I don’t want control. I really don’t. Not over others, anyway. I want control over myself, over my own life. I want freedom.
Is there anything that wrong about that?
I feel that my only options are being inauthentic, mocking, or simply walking away. I know that sounds horrible, but it’s true.
Sometimes a person, or a situation, is just so ridiculous, and you’ve been so controlled by it for so long, that you begin to see how absolutely pathetic it is. And there’s nothing else you can do but to laugh.