I’ve had a pretty rough day today. It’s really gotten me thinking about my life and where I am in it… And where I want to be. If I’m being honest, I’m not entirely happy with who or what I currently am.
Sometimes, admitting our shortcomings can be painful, but if we never acknowledge them, we’ll never know how to fix them. Like a broken leg that hasn’t set right, it will “heal” wrong and we’ll be left with the pain of it forever.
Unless of course it’s re-broken. Maybe, when it feels like we’re facing one storm after another, that’s what’s happening. We have to be broken in a certain way so that we can heal in the very particular way necessary. Maybe the repeated storms are actually a blessing in disguise. It’s just hard to see that at the time.
Sometimes we’re kept safe up on the shore, but we feel as though we’re slipping further away, faster by the minute.
I took today as an opportunity to really sit down and try to figure out what it is I feel like I’m missing. I compiled a very interesting list that I hope will help me in figuring it all out. I think life is always a process of learning and growing. So I’m sure there will always be new things to learn and figure out, but I’m taking it one step at a time.
If anyone else is in a similar place, I want you to know that there is hope. It may not seem like it yet, but there will be better days. And for everyone who has been there for someone when they needed it most, thank you. I really and truly cannot express how valuable your love is.