I’m Here – Free Writing

One day blends into another and I’m standing a week later, a month, a year… Time doesn’t make sense anymore. It hasn’t for a while, but it’s only now that I’m realizing just how far off it seems.

I sink into the dark, then come back up bobbing in the water. Up. Down. Then it starts all over again.

Some days shine brighter than others, some my light is dim, but it’s still there. I’m still here.

This time. This moment.

The sun peeks out over the horizon and cuts through the fog. My eyes are closed and I feel the warmth, the cool, all the conflicting things that don’t make any sense, yet somehow all come together to make me who I am.

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4 thoughts on “I’m Here – Free Writing

  1. Made me think of this exchange between Samwise and Frodo in LotR…

    Sam: It’s like in the great stories Mr. Frodo, the ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn’t want to know the end because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end it’s only a passing thing, this shadow; even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines it’ll shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you, that meant something even if you were too small to understand why. But I think Mr. Frodo, I do understand, I know now folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going because they were holding on to something.

    Frodo: What are we holding on to, Sam?

    Sam: That there’s some good in the world, Mr. Frodo, and it’s worth fighting for.

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