Mondays seem to be cloudy and rainy lately. I can’t say I mind… It’s nice to have an excuse to stay in and write or read, warm tea nearby, cozy sweaters while I can.
The problem is, my life feels like that. I can’t access my own thoughts or feelings, just like the sun is hidden behind the clouds, so too are any ideas I have hidden from me. And it’s an alarming, frustrating feeling.
And yet, there are good things too.
I’m learning that I need to let myself truly relax. No pressure. Just calm.
I’m learning that it’s okay to let go, to not be in control, to let things happen as they come.
I’m learning that I need to take the time I need for me, so that I can function at a better level for those around me.
I’m learning that it’s okay to not have all the answers. And it’s okay to let people think what they will of me. Fear of what other people will think has held me back for so long, and I need to stop being limited by that.
And so, even the stormy days have a purpose, each one is teaching me something new. I need to release my control, because I never had it in the first place, and all it does is hurt me (and others) when I try.
So today, I choose to let myself rest. I still feel the inner struggle, but I know I need space even for my body to physically recover.
What ways do you like to relax?